The last cuddle?

Last night I got to cuddle with my son. He woke up screaming and crying, so I went to see what was wrong; he was acting like he had a bad dream (I'm not sure if they can have dreams yet at their age-I've heard they have to be able to speak to dream, but thats what it seemed like). Nathan made him a bottle and I held and rocked him- he seemed like he just needed to be held for a while. I was all for that, since he never really wants to cuddle anymore. But last night he was content to just lay in my arms, and watched a little tv with me, and slept a little. :) I finally decided that he would sleep better if I put him back to bed, so as I walked up the stairs, carrying him close to me in my arms, I went as slowly as I could- trying to make the moment last a little longer. And as I'm writing this now, I want to cry because I've missed cuddling with him and I'm not sure if there will be many (or any) more chances to hold him like I did last night.

1st birthday party!

Jonathan had a great party yesterday! He seemed to have a lot of fun, even though he was a little tired (he wouldn't nap before the party). It was mostly family (My mom and dad, Rachel, Matt, Ron and Linda), and my friend Vanessa came too! It was nice because there was a lot of visiting as well as being there for Jonathan! Nathan helped Jonathan open presents first, and everyone gave him some really cute toys, books and clothes. Then we sang happy birthday to him, and my mom helped him blow out his candle. I had made Jonathan a bear cake (which didn't turn out to be up to my standards, haha. I'm not the best at decorating cakes...) Then we cut the cake... and gave Jonathan his frosted cupcake (the real cake had chocolate and butterscotch chips that I didn't want him to choke on). He LOVED it! And he made a mess, but it wasn't as big of a mess as I thought it would be.

The Bear cake. Not the best cake I've ever seen HAHA!

The table decorated for the party...

His highchair ready for the mess!

His banner....

The party hat that came with his kit... I didn't make him wear it for the party :)

People! Dad, Linda, Matt and Nathan

Vanessa- I caught her off guard lol :)

Matt and Rachel....

Mom, Rachel, Vanessa, Dad, Matt, Linda and Ron

I don't know who took this but me and Jonathan....

Nathan and Jonathan opening presents!

Toys and clothes!

And a bag!

Ribbon and more toys!

A book!

Matt playing with one of Jonathans toys :)

A winter hat!

Linda and Vanessa watching Jonathan


Playing with his toys...

Jonathan, Rachel and Mom

Nathan and Jonathan, and Linda, Vanessa, Dad, Ron and Matt

Singing Happy Birthday to Jonathan!

Mmm a cupcake!

He LOVES the frosting!

Savoring the taste! One of my favorite pictures!

He has a hold of his cupcake :)


Trying out the ice cream as well as the cake!

I think everyone had a great time and I was glad that they came to help Jonathan celebrate his 1st birthday! :)

A month gone by...

I can't believe its almost a whole month since I've written last. I was trying to wait till we got highspeed internet back, because dial-up internet stinks- anyways, it doesn't look like we're going to get it for awhile, so I figured I would just write. It has been a busy month. Before she passed away, my Grandma asked Nathan and I if we would live in their house- to keep it in the family. The rest of the family (immediate and extended) were ok with it, so we have been in the process of moving. We are mostly moved in now. There are still a couple of rooms that still need a lot of work (We are needing to clean out the house as well as move our stuff in) but thats okay. It is a bit hard living here, I will look in a room and imagine my Grandparents here and what they would be doing if they were still living, such as my Grandpa sitting at his kitchen table looking through all his mail... my Grandma working on her latest Jigsaw puzzle... or them both sitting in the living room watching the Lawrence Welk Show. I miss them a lot, sometimes I wish I could go back in time and just give them one more hug and tell them I love them just one more time...

On another note, I hosted Thanksgiving this year. My parents have been off on a cruise- in fact they will just be getting back in a couple of days. So they missed Thanksgiving this year, but I'm sure they needed a vacation more. Anyways, my sister and brother came over and I made turkey (for the first time!), mashed potatoes and gravy, sweet potato casserole, stuffing, corn and rolls for dinner. I also made a fruit dip and fruit tray, and made a cheeseball (homemade, NOT storebought!) to eat with crackers. Dinner was so good- if I do say so myself lol. I know i'm bragging a little bit, but I'm meaning too! lol. But seriously, I was kinda doubting that I could pull it off, but I did pretty good for the first time.

Jonathans birthday is coming up, or rather his birthday party. His 1 year birthday is on the 18th, but we are celebrating it on the 13th. I'm going to try to make a bear cake for it, unless I chicken out and just buy a cake... :) I think I'm going to try though. I'm very much excited to celebrate his birthday and then Christmas soon after!

I think I have rambled on for long enough! For those of you who have blogs that I usually read, I am sorry to have missed so much of yours. When I get highspeed internet I will try to catch up as quickly as I can! I am looking forward to reading all that I have missed!